The results from the doctor

I went to the hematologist today and talked about my low white blood count issues I’ve been having. It’s kind of long to explain, but since I’ve been asking you all to pray for me, I figured I would tell you what the doctor said too. :)

The appointment went good, though there was a lot of waiting and a lot of talking. First thing is first, no I don’t have leukemia, lymphoma or anything like that. He’s not extremely worried about my low white blood count since I don’t have any other major symptoms. Just a little tiredness, which could be anything. What has really worried him (and my primary physician) is that my granules (which is part of the wbc) was extremely low this time. It should normally be around 1000, when it was taken on the 10th it was 200. I wouldn’t be able to fight a bacterial infection to well with it that low. The way he explained my wbc is that my ‘normal’ is probably around 2 or 3, and the test on the 10th I was 2.1. Which actually would be fine, because it means my body wasn’t fighting any infections so my count was normal. When my body was fighting infections, the other times I had my blood tested, it came back ‘high’ in the 3 range because my body was fighting an infection so there was more white blood cells. But on the 10th and even today, my counts were in the 2 range because my body is not fighting anything (thank the Lord).

So now my granules. Like I said, that bothered him the most. The more I talked about the supplements I’ve been taking (I take flaxseed, grapefruit seed extract and a Shaklee immunity pill) he started thinking it was my supplements. He wants me to stop taking all my supplements for a month then I go back on March 26th for another blood test. He took a blood test today, and my granules were up from 200 to 400, but still not high enough. He really isn’t worried about it, but if in a month it shows that it’s not my supplements then he will want to look at my bone marrow, just to make sure that there isn’t any autoimmune things going on. But he really thinks at this point, it’s my supplements. I didn’t think about it until after we left, but I think it’s the grapefruit seed extract and the Shaklee pills that is messing with me. For all my other blood tests I wasn’t taking either of those two things, but most importantly I just started taking the grapefruit seed extract about a month ago. Which was about 2 weeks before my last test on the 10th, which is the only test out of the 4 I took that had low granules. And even today’s test I hadn’t taken the Shaklee, but I had still been taking my grapefruit seed extract. So though the thought of the bone marrow test is still a little nerve racking when I think of it (which I try not to do much :) ) I’m really convinced that more than anything it’s the supplements. Well, more to the point, it’s probably the grapefruit seed extract. He said that my wbc is probably doing what it’s supposed to do and is fine, and when you start adding supplements, sometimes they confuse and mess up the body. I can accept that, since I’ve never really taken supplements before now. He thinks my sinus infections were just a simple sinus infection. Nothing really related to the wbc, but more because I’ve always had issues with my sinus’ for years, and this time it turned into an infection.

So all in all it was good, though I would have liked to received a clean bill of health at this appointment. But I’m guessing I’ll get that at my next appointment in a month (ok so that’s what I’m praying for :) ). One of the biggest thing I was happy about was he said to start exercising more. My doctor had said to make sure I rest, even nurse friends and such said that. Everyone, and me, thinking my wbc was low, make sure I rest, etc… I told a friend the other day that if I rest anymore I’ll be sleeping most of the day. :) My hematologist said to get up and get moving, start exercising, I’m so glad to hear that. He said keeping well hydrated is good too, and you know my water intake has been a little low. Then he said to eat a balanced diet. He said nothing crazy, just balanced. I said, “Well I’m a meat and taters kind of girl.” He said, “That’s fine, just add some broccoli with it.” It was all so reassuring. I feel like I can get back to a normalcy that I haven’t really felt in a while. I don’t have to worry about what I eat, I don’t have to worry about resting a lot and most of all I don’t have to worry about a low wbc, because for me there is a good chance it’s just normal. I do pray that after I’m off the supplements for a month, my blood work will come back with the granules in the normal range. I don’t mind dropping the grapefruit seed extract and Shaklee pills, but the flaxseed I ate to help with the constipation I get from my IBS. I have found some other things I like to eat, like my homemade hummus, that help with that too. I’m hoping if I stick with that, adding more veggies, keeping my water intake at a good level and start exercising more, then my IBS will be ok without the flaxseed. Thank you so much for the prayers, they really did help, I know they did. And now I’m going to try and move on and not worry about things right now.

I do need to say that I know that some of you might not fully agree with my stopping the supplements or agree with the fact that the supplements could be causing these problems. I respect your opinions but I ask that you not talk down, criticize or otherwise talk against what I, my husband and my doctor agree on. I hesitated sharing all this information because I did not want to receive critical comments regarding the approach we are taking. I ask that if you don’t agree, you would refrain from leaving any comments. This is my choice and I feel like it is what is best for my body. Thanks. :)

Doctor update and other things

I went to the doctor today for the follow up blood work on my white blood count. I am still low. :( The doctor did check and I don’t have mono (which a friend of mine had suggested). The doctor said we are just in a monitoring mode right now. I’m wondering if I’m just in the low range all the time. The WBC range is 3.5-10, I was a 3.2, 3.7, then 3.2 again today. And I’m actually feeling good today, well except for my back. So maybe I’m just always on the low range? I don’t know. I will go back in a month, but truthfully I’m tired of dealing with this. If it’s something, I want to know and take care of it, if its nothing, I really don’t want to know my count is low. Oh well, I leave it in the Lord’s hands and know He is the one in control. I’m going to try not to think about it all month.

My back is doing better, it still hurts, but it’s in a different area. That’s a good thing in my opinion, I can tell it’s all healing up. Of course I cleaned today, which wasn’t too bad, until I scrubbed toilets and mopped floors. Yes, I know, crazy. But at least my house is clean now. :)

I haven’t started up any exercising yet, and I probably won’t for another week or so. I really want my back feeling better. I still like the idea of T-Tapp, but I just don’t know that I can afford it. The rehab version will cost me over $70, that is so much money. Plus, what if this is just not a workout my body can handle? I hate to spend that kind of money, and then not be able to use it. But I really like the workout and want to try it. Ugh. I hate being in a place like this.

We choose not to celebrate halloween or go to the harvest party at church. We started spending the time together as a family years ago and now we all look forward to it. We prefer not to answer the doors either, it’s just easier that way for us. Usually the kids and I will go some where in the afternoon but today we decided to watch a movie. So right now the kids and I are curled up in my bedroom watching a movie and waiting for Paul to come home. Then we will all go out to dinner at Sizzler. I am hungry just think about. ;)

I’ve been working on two different crochet projects lately. They are fun projects. If you want to see pictures of what I’m working on or read about it you can go to my other blog here.

I didn’t want to end without sharing a photo with you. This is from March, visiting my sister and niece at a local hotel. We all had some fun swimming. I think my back could really use some swimming or at least the hot tub right now. :)

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The Lord takes care of me. . . .

Yet I doubt Him so very much.  I don’t know why I doubt, why I don’t believe that He can bless me with something when I really want it.  Actually, I take that back, I do know why I have a hard time believing He will bless me, I don’t feel like I deserve it.  I feel like, “Why would He want to bless me when I’ve doubted Him, not trusted Him, tried to manipulate a situation, I complain, I whine, I stomp my feet (figuratively, though at times really :) ), and I create tons of headaches for Him.  So why would He want to bless me?  He probably wants to teach me a ‘lesson’ first.  Withhold something I really truly want until I realize what I’m doing wrong.  Yes, I know in my head that is not the way the Lord is.  I read His word and see that He is a loving and caring God.  I know He not only gives us what we need, but He will bless us with our desires sometimes too.  But in my heart I have a hard time trusting and believing He does enjoy giving me things even when they are not needed.  I need to keep giving this to the Lord.  I know He will help me learn and grow in this, and I’m thankful He never leaves me when I feel like this.  And here is my story of how the Lord blessed me even though I truly didn’t think He could.

 

It all started a few weeks ago when I started dealing with my sicknesses, tiredness and low white blood count.  I wanted a new workout to try.  I know I need cardiovascular but I really wanted something that would help me firm up and I could actually see a difference with my workouts.  My friend Mary had started T-Tapp (and I know other blog friends who have used it) and she really likes it.  I started looking into more for myself and decided I really wanted to try it.  But the cheapest DVD was $35.  I had some money left, but not $35, and truthfully I didn’t know if I wanted to spend the last little bit of my birthday money on something I didn’t even know if I would like.  I studied about it, prayed, pouted, stomped my feet, whined to the Lord about how much I wanted it.  And I knew in my heart there was no way I could get it without spending money I didn’t have.  I just couldn’t see the Lord doing anything else.  But through my throwing a temper tantrum like a child, there were times I truly gave it to the Lord.  There were times I could have manipulated certain situations to try and get it, but I didn’t.  I gave it too the Lord, still thinking there was no way for me to ever get it.

 

Then last night I’m at mom’s night out and right before we are leaving I get this feeling I should ask the ladies if they have ever heard of T-Tapp.  It was a small group and I’m thinking, no one around here would have heard it.  But I truly felt to bring it up so I did and one of the ladies had heard about it!  I asked, “Do you have a DVD I could borrow to see if I like it?”  She said, “No, but why don’t you ask Tanya (a mutual friend of ours), she has tons of workout videos.”  I was like, DUH!, of course.  She is a very healthy person, always taking care of herself, and works out a lot. Of course she has 7 children, so she’s very busy and I knew I probably wouldn’t get a hold of her for a few days, but I had hope.

 

I left the restaurant to go pick up Sarah from the Christmas play practice at our church and who was there?  Tanya!  I asked her and she said yes, she had quick a few of them I could borrow.  Plus she’s thinking of selling a couple of them really cheap!  Look what I came home with today to try.
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I am so blessed.  I get to try it, see if I like it.  See if it’s something I want to spend my money on, and possibly buy one from her cheap.  If not, it will give me time to save for it and see if I really like it.  I don’t know why I didn’t think the Lord could bless me like this.  I am humbled to know that He did, even though I was acting like a spoiled brat.

 

But the Lord wasn’t done blessing me.  I have been dealing with a lot of sickness and tiredness, sometimes exhaustion.  My white blood count is low (everything else is ok) but with it low, I seem to catch any little virus going around.  One day I feel fine, one day all I can do is lay around and rest.  When I went to pick up the DVD’s today I was talking with my friend about how I am feeling, and letting her know how much I’m not liking it.  She is a Shaklee representative.  I’ve heard good things about the company but definitely don’t have the money for any of their products.  As we are talking she says here, take this, and hands me a bottle.  She said this should help raise your white blood count so you can stop catching every little virus around and hopefully I can start getting more energy.  And she wouldn’t take any money for it.

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I already took some today, and will take some for the next 2 days.  Then hopefully my body will start healing itself and I can slowly start getting my energy back.  I’ve decided no cardiovascular exercise for another week or so, which is very hard for me.  I was just getting into a routine of it, but it seems like whenever I exert myself like that I am exhausted the rest of the day.  As my husband (and my Aunt ;) ) always say, I just don’t give my body time enough to rest.  So I’m going to work, very slowly, with the firming exercises on the DVD’s I borrowed.  I probably won’t even do the whole workout for a while, just practice the moves and get use to it.  Between that, resting, the pills and of course, most important, prayer, I know by the time I go back to the doctor on the 31st, my white blood count will be back up.  And most importantly I will have more energy.

 

So the Lord blessed me in another way that I wasn’t even looking for.  I am so thankful for all He has done for me today, and I just can’t say it enough.  He loves me even though I am not worth it.  I can do nothing to be worth it, that’s why He sent His Son to die for me on the cross.  And if He gives me nothing else the rest of my life He’s given me enough.  But yet He still chooses to bless me like He did today.  Lord I love you.